Waiting... and thinking about booze

I could not sleep last night for the life of me. We have to leave our house at 2:30 am tomorrow morning and I have a feeling I won't be sleeping at all tonight! Whoever thought it was a good idea to make our airplane leave at 6:30 am is an idiot!

I just wanted to say hello - especially to the new followers! Hi! - and mention that I'll be away for a whole week in sunny (hopefully) Mexico. It's our 1-year anniversary and we're going down with a bunch of friends. It should be a riot! I remember last year I ate WAY too much guacamole. I'm planning on doing the same again :)

The big question for me is whether I'll be drinking or not. I've spent the last 15 months without drinking, through the two lost pregnancies. So I kind of feel happy that I've been living such a 'pure' life and being pretty self-disciplined! I don't really miss it, other than occasionally I miss the taste of Bailey's or even a good rum and coke or a beer. But... I wouldn't mind having the chance to let loose a little. And the group we're going with (all in their mid-twenties, we'll be the geezers nearly 10 years older) are loads of fun and definitely are not teetotalers. I haven't really decided yet.

On one hand it would be fun to kick back and forget some of the troubles and stresses of the past year. I don't technically have to stay sober - I'm no longer pregnant, and we can't try until February. It's an all-inclusive resort with all top-end liquors. And sometimes when other people are drinking they get a little... I don't know, wary? insecure? and think anyone not drinking is judging them. You know what I mean. (Although I know that 'other people' is not a good reason to drink!)

On the other hand it's been pretty easy for me not to drink - I'm a lightweight and it's never taken me much to get drunk (a few sips of wine can do it), but when I do get drunk it goes like - sober, half a drink = happy drunk, an hour later I am completely sober again and invariably cranky. So really it has never felt 'worth it' to get drunk in terms of the expense and the crankiness. As I get older I find I am more prone to hangovers, too - which I never had before I was thirty.

I don't know. I guess I'm leaning towards 'virgin' cocktails. I'll have to wait and see how it goes. It wouldn't be a big deal if nobody made a big deal about it... but once everyone knows I'm not drinking then things get weird. Only one of the couples knows about the miscarriages. And I don't really want to get into it with anyone.

Anyway... this is just me raving on while procrastinating (I haven't packed yet!). I'll be back in December with more giveaway lists. And who knows, I may pop in from Mexico!

Hasta luego!