Sunshine, on an emotional Monday

Thanks to Jenn from Our Crazy Life for the Sunshine Award she passed on to me! That was sweet :) I'll have to come up with some blogs to pass it on to. I just don't have the energy at the moment.I am definitely in need of some sunshine today. I'm back in the hormonal and emotional rollercoaster of TTC. I say I and not we, because DH is pretty laid back about the whole thing. For the record, I wish I were able to be so relaxed about it. I mean to be, but the hormones just take over. (And please don't say "It will happen when you relax"... it has happened for us twice before, conceiving hasn't been the problem in the past, it's been other things... a miscarriage, then an ectopic pregnancy.)

Me, I'm so sick of waiting and wishing. I just want to level up. And with my ridiculous cycles (last one 38 days, the one before 31), it's really hard to tell when's the 'right' time - even with the help of Fertility Friend, an online charting site (hey, if you want an invite for Fertility Friend, please do let me know & send me your email address. It would help me out by giving me some extra time on the site. You get a month free to start!). I've been taking FertilAid regularly - DH has been taking his once a day instead of three times. I'm wondering if it will have any impact on my cycle. (Stay tuned for an upcoming review!)

So, anyway, today is day 20 and I feel like we totally missed the window. The start of another 4 weeks until we can try again? Argh!

I wish life were more like The Sims. I want to click "Try for Baby" and get 'er done. Instead, I've got an unhappy moodlet and am throwing a mental temper tantrum in true Sim style.

And, I've got my class to teach tonight - with that woman who makes inappropriate comments about me having children. I wonder if this will be the third week in a row that she brings it up?

Otherwise - other than me having the crazies - we had a nice weekend. We got some new inserts for our front doors which offer a bit more privacy and a lot more light. The transom is still on order - what do you think?I'll do a giveaway list tomorrow. If you're craving the rush of entering giveaways (and are Canadian), go enter my Glade giveaway. It's pretty sweet, with a bottle of wine, really nice Glade candles and a reed diffuser, a yummy cookie from Jinja Ninja and some cute V-Day cards from Jonesy. What are you waiting for? Go!

ps, yes, things look different - blogger went and changed the way they do things and my background is no more. *sigh*